Funny how I seldom do text posts since I appreciated the art of reblogging and stopped restricting myself to plain text posts.
I haven’t done a relatively long one in a while, so my sentence syntax might be off. Oh, goodness it feels off already. But no, I want to post something worthy.
So anyway, after the stresses that I have been taking lightly (thank You. You helped me get through it all despite everything), I just realized how much I missed my super friend. When we finally had enough time to sit and talk, it felt too short since we had to cut it due to the demanding school requirements. And even if it was my other friend’s birthday celebration a while ago, it felt like another ‘reunion’ talk with my super friend - we talked the entire time and just dealt with things we should’ve talked about ages ago, but never had the time to.
I know I’m sounding, err, feeling, so clingy right now, but it’s just how I feel, how I felt. Like, I want one entire day to just catch up with the stories we must share, moments we let slip, and other things that we can relate to. ‘Cause really, maybe a few hours will not be enough to finish the talking.
And in line with this, I also realized that this is the general kind of relationship I want. With other people. I like the feeling of independence, that even when we’re not always together and we seldom have time for each other, it’s okay. We’ll just need one chat, phone call, text message, or a bump, to refresh our memories or share bits of gossip to stay updated. I like how, I shouldn’t always express how I feel. Wait, this is applicable to ALL the relationships I have with other people - family, friends, acquaintances, loved ones, important people, biases. So going back, I like how I shouldn’t always express my appreciation, my love for them. I mean, I’m not really good at expressing my feelings, or I seldom do that (unless I’m in a really good mood and I will keep bugging the person, or keep hugging them). I like how one simple note would make them feel how much I actually care. How the little things that my mind and my heart can give are of high importance, for me, and that I do it out of sincerity. I don’t have to prove how much they mean to me, I don’t have to be guarded by their love and protection, I want the freedom. I want the trust.
I want the open-mindedness in a relationship.
And maybe this is also one essential feature I’m looking for in future romantic relationships. But let’s not get into that, yet.
So there. I feel secure when relationships are like these. Open, free, and full of trust.
Maybe that’s just how I roll. That’s how I do things.
*I call her my super friend because we’ve had a lot of moments that would rank her as a “bestest friend”. But “bestest” sounds awful for me and so I call her super friend. And she calls me bestie. Yup.
*And the syntax of this post is way too off. I’ll make a better one someday. I just wanted to let these emotions out. :)